"Once again I'm riding shotgun, to everything that's on my mind."

For the first time since I've been blogging, I am at a loss on what nickname to use for a boy I'm potentially interested in. I'm not sure what that exactly means about him, I know enough to come up with a nickname yet as much as I ponder it my mind stays blank. I had a manager once who said he'll know I'm serious about someone when I stop referring to him as a boy and start saying "my man". Perhaps the nicknaming goes along with that, guess only time will tell.

Regardless, I was very disappointed when the weekend passed without a second call from him. I know I had said how I was busy all weekend so I wrote it off as him acknowledging the fact I had said I really wasn't free. It's so frustrating to be at this stage where you think there is potential interest with a guy and yet there is no validation that the same thoughts are crossing his mind. With my past history with guys this also comes with another worry - does he just want a hookup, or does he actually want to date me?

On paper there's a decent size "con" list to what I know about him, things that if I didn't know the guy would cause me to never give him a chance. There's even some deal breakers - these don't change because of him, but I seem to be able to overlook them because of him. I learned from season one of Tough Love to not make lists and analyze perceived faults before allowing a guy the chance to get to know him; and this is what I will attempt to do.

Then last night my phone rang and there was his name, he opened with that he was thinking about me and that he hadn't heard from me (oops, I'm bad with phone etiquette especially when it comes to guys... I just cannot make the phone call early on). While I still don't know where his mind is at I'd like to think that it's looking good so far. Especially since we talked for two and a half hours without any real lag in the conversation. He makes me laugh and I find myself really wanting to see him again.

Unfortunately he lives an hour away so prior planning will need to happen to see him and the weather is not cooperating to pull a "I was in the neighborhood because I felt like a hike, want to join me?" move. So hopefully I'll be able to hang out with him very soon. I think we need a one-on-one hangout (I hate dates so I'm refusing the use the terminology) to see if there's anything there and to figure out where his head is at.

The bad thing is I've never been a patient person but I don't have a choice since I'm booked all next weekend and this Sunday is Father's Day which eats up time this weekend. So I will wait and try to not over think everything (and more importantly I will try not to daydream about the fairy tale ending that I want) and hope that we get to see each other soon.