The dawning of a new year brings about a feeling in most people that changing that four digit number at the end of the date is an opportunity to become a better version of you. A new year is the chance to turn over a new leaf - stop a bad habit, lose some weight, spend more time with friends and family, etc. People make countless resolutions that are forgotten a week in to January with the notion that at least you tried, maybe next year you'll do better.
Maybe next year... a cop out reasoning to failure. In the end that's what a broken resolution is - failure, by not kicking the habit/the bad boyfriend/those few extra pounds you are selling yourself short. So my resolution this year is to no longer sell myself short. I have always been a giver, I give 200% of myself to everyone in my life and rarely save anything for myself. I deserve to only have friends who care about me and who are not completely and utterly selfish and self-centered. To those who use and abuse me, see ya! I also deserve to not be taken advantage of by my family - this is a harder battle but I am working on it.
I'd be lying if I said that I was holding firm to this resolution when it comes to guys though. If something is said to be over before it has even begun, if it has an expiration date on it, then shouldn't I put the nail in the coffin and officially end it? I should, but I can't for various reasons. I know I am not being fair to myself, I want a guy who can't keep his hands off of me, a guy who won't let too many days go before he sees me again. Yet I'm young and I should allow myself to enjoy the moment. And the moment is good if I keep the "what does this mean!" voices quiet.
Besides, I have a potential new distraction. And Goldberg is doing just that, he's touching base with me after a few days, he's asking to grab a drink. It looks like he wants to see more of me even if I don't know in what capacity. And while Benedick is far more appropriate of a match for me as boyfriend material, there's something about Goldberg that makes me grin.
Perhaps then I should make a new resolution - to enjoy the moment and to stop over thinking everything. Easier said than done but I'm going to give it my best shot. 'Cause honey, I'm single and fabulous and I should be enjoying the moment regardless of the end result.
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That is definitely "single and fabulous- exclamation point!" and NOT "single and fabulous- question mark." You are wonderful my dear. :) Cheers!
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